New Year Resolutions

ok, so new year has gone, and chinese new year is ending soon...

it's about time i made some resolutions !

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS

1) Lose weight

Yes, i bet most of the girls out there would have this on their list ! yar har...but i reckon that i need it more than some already-almost-flab-free girls. I was severely jolted to this reality a few days ago when i realized...I HAD TO WEAR JEANS TO WORK !!! this was like WHAM-BAM-SLAM ! -silence- ... gahhhhh if you share my misery of having a humongous improportionate ass like me, you'll understand. i ALWAYS hated buying bottoms. when it fitted my waist, i couldn't even pull it up cus it was too small for my ass. when it fitted my ass, i could stuff my whole fist with space to spare down it.

AND JEANS MAKES MY HUGE ASS DAMN OBVIOUS. hello friends, i bet not once did u see ME wearing JEANS have you? yes i HATE JEANS. im used to ignoring my flaws and hiding them under FBT shorts (which doesn't have the problem of the waist-ass fitting thing). LONG LIVE FBT !

yar har, now everyday for 8 hours i am constantly reminded of HOW GARGANTUAN MY ASS IS. you think that's fun? ): also if you notice, in pictures my face looks like a BAO with EXTRA FILLING in it. seriously. so already-almost-flab-free girls who should be feeling extremely pleased with themselves, please donate your running machines to me :DD

i should start off by FIRST stop eating KFC ! it's kinda hard cus DC loves KFC xD




DC devouring the crispy chicken thigh to the last of it's remains... lol.
the exact opposite of him, i'm a picky eater. i waste chicken. i only eat like tendons-free, vessels-free, (visible)fat-free meat. so you'll see me picking off bits that i don't like and decorating the sides of my paper plate with them =S


DC: -licks lips- It's finger lickin good!
ME: can you see how fat my face is?? )):

SECONDLY, i should probably start fitting jogging and climbing stairs into my schedule...
i really prefer climbing stairs to jogging cus i can do it even when the sun is scorching (best for late sleepers like me) and my knees last longer without hurting (: if you can't stick to jogging for long, try climbing stairs!

2) Be a better girlfriend

Haha, although I've improved a lot, sometimes i relapse to being a unreasonable bad-tempered bitch =/ So i have to maintain, plus be more understanding, accomodating, caring, and cook more for my dear :D

3) Be a better friend

Most of the time I find it hard to initiate conversation with friends unless we already talk often. I shall put in extra effort to maintain connections with my friends this year! I also find myself too unappreciative for my liking. Hurr, I have never sent Christmas cards or whatever...I must do it this year! You're welcome to knock me in the head if i don't this year =/

4) Be a better daughter

Lalala, this post's atmosphere is getting more serious by minute lol.

My dad has changed a lot across the year in 2008. He stopped smoking. His attitude towards me turned for the better. He started initiating friendly, non-intimidating, non-threatening conversation with me. Last time he wouldn't talk to me except to demand information from me like 'where i was going' and 'with whom'. Now we can even chat amicably for a bit. He stopped losing his temper with me and my bro. He accepted DC and is friendlier towards him. I can even tell he treats our whole family a lot better from all the family dinners he cooked for us this year. Even today, he cooked dinner and sharkfin and invited DC to dinner with us. Tomorrow, we're going to JB to shop!

Hahaha, suddenly I realize 'Whoa, since when did my life started getting so good?'. :D

I have a perfect boyfriend, who is perfect because even if he isn't, he is willing to make things work. I have a great family (except my bro who needs to buck up lol). I have some good friends and a few close friends. I'm thankful for everything. Life has been good to me. (:

I have decided to end here because whatever i planned to write next pales too much in comparison to be on the list.

Enjoy the last of the Chinese New Year! and i hope that your life is getting better too :D

I GOT THE $18 PER HOUR JOB !

YES YES YES YES i got the 18 bucks per hour IT trainer job !!!

this is ALL THANKS TO CELINE who told me about the job XD

ok i was so so so happy just now...

but now that i think about it....hurrrr 18 bucks per hour isn't really EASY MONEY like i thought ):

i mean i would have to prepare my lesson in my own time, and when i think about dealing with all those i-don't-give-a-rat's-ass students, i feel like i need to grab onto the nearest object to steady myself.

so much for easy money... ):



i went for the 7 bucks per hour IT promoter job training today too and ended up with...
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a shitload of stuff to read........

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a super UNFEMININE t-shirt.

seriously, there are unisex shirts in this world but this cuts nowhere near it.

maybe Microsoft wasn't informed about the existence of THE MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX, being cooped up in the computer lab and all.

i wouldn't be surprised. lol

and look at this -__-

That's right! I work on virtually any surface! if you get lucky, you might catch me working on the ceiling, upside down the next time you pass by Sim Lim Square! :D
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im kidding. -__- thumbs down if you didn't realize i was. =P

it's actually talking about the new BlueTrack Technology in the Microsoft Explorer and Explorer Mini Mouses



they can track on more surfaces than any laser or optical mouse, even on thick carpet and highly polished granite!

but what i think is really cool is this Arc Mouse:

this is really sleek and it is fully collapsible to become much smaller for traveling without compromising comfort!

Muahahahaha!

So if you want to buy Microsoft hardware, retail or OEM software, or any computer stuff, come visit me at Sim Lim Square, Level 5 -Bell Systems :DD

Ask for Siah Shu Fen to serve you :D:D

Kinder Surprise!

lol this shall be a random post.

so i took my SAT...and even though i was totally slacking and barely studied i pray and pray that i get more than 2000 out of 2400 -_-...im greedy muahahaha :D

Happy Chinese Niu Year ! :D

So i went to Malaysia as usual for CNY, and my routine went like this, sleep, eat, sleep, eat, sleep, eat...there's really not much to do there.

BUT...

while my mum was stocking up on chewing gum at a super mart across the road, i found THIS TREASURE !

OMG ! it's the legendary Kinder Surprise i loved ever since i was a child !

i remember i would always beg my mum to buy it whenever i went to Shop N Save with her...
but, later it disappeared and i couldn't find it anywhere in Singapore :(((

Now it's back (in msia haha) with a new name, Kinder Joy!

upon inspection, i realized it wasn't only the name that was different...


instead of a chocolate egg-shaped coating with the toy encased in a orange plastic egg within it, now half the egg is chocolate while the other half contains the toy...

CAN YOU GUESS WHAT THE WHITE HEAD SHAPED PLASTIC IS FOR?

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it's a spoon lol xD and the 2 brown balls thingy taste like Ferrero Rocher!!!


the toy !! :D

ahem i bought whatever they had so...

from the left, pencil holder crab, bobbing seahorse, and photo frame alien :D

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!

unequally yoked

do you expect to be the utmost important thing to the one and only person you love?

im not referring to family, cus they are a total different category altogether.

your boyfriend for example, unlike family, have no obligations to stand by your ups and downs or your times of pure evilness. he has no obligations to abandon his goals, career, ideology or religion. yet somehow, i always assumed he would if that was what it took to be with me.

once, he said he would die for me. i didn't want him to die for me, yet from that statement i assumed that he would give up anything for me. would he die for his goals, career, ideology or religion? probably not i thought. hence, the assumption that he would give up anything for me.

however, recently i realized otherwise. it seems like if he had to choose between his religion or me, he would choose the former. the reason given being if i was one to make him choose, i was not the one that he wants. no, i don't want to make him choose. but i want to know that if he had to choose, it would be me he chooses. sounds screwed? i probably am.

i want to freaking know that even if I was a damned unreasonable bitch that told him "quit your religion or we are over", he would. or that his religion told him "cut ties with that bitch or stop coming to church", and he wouldn't.

we've been reminded by his fellow devotees that relationship/marriage between a believer and non-believer is a sin, and had a fight over it. however, it seemed like he was ready to disobey God for me...for the time being at least. yet, now it unsettles me knowing that if forced to make a choice between his religion and me, he would choose the former. Not that i want to force him to make a choice, but i cower so at the thought that i'm just something waiting for his religion to deem intolerable and be pushed out. the fear penetrates the spirit of my very being knowing that i'm helpless to do anything about it.

i wonder how long will it take before he would blame problems in our relationship on the fact that i was 'unsaved'. because i am 'unsaved', hence i am such a bad-tempered, unreasonable, arrogant, evil bitch...until he finally decides "God was right, i shouldn't be with that bitch who rejected God. I shouldn't have disobeyed God." and dumps me. i am afraid of that day. why should i be by his side, like a weed waiting to be pulled out, despite all his claims of love for me?

2 Corinthians 6:14 “Do not be yoked together with unbelievers.”

my heart goes out to those whose love was denied, rejected and then crushed all in the name of being 'unsaved'. it is as if us non-believers are labelled as unworthy of those believers from the very day we exist.

i used to think that one would do anything for love. but today i realized, love can do fairly little. Love cannot change one thing, ideologies. Ideologies is what decides how much anything can change another thing. If love is top in your ideologies list, then it can change anything, even one's religion. But if love is trailing after religion, goals, career, family, money, fame, then love probably can't do much.

i used to think i would do anything for love. but today i asked myself, if the one i loved gave me the ultimatum and said "become a believer or i will leave you". i probably would refuse right off the bat. my own answer surprised even myself. always thought of myself as someone who regarded love highly, i couldn't understand why i rejected it immediately. on reflection i realized that love wasn't all that majestic and beautiful after all.

romantic love between essentially two strangers stand no chance against the battering forces of their own beliefs. sure, you hear about romeo and juliet, 牛郎 and 织女, stories that make love sound so great and powerful. but love is extremely vulnerable in the face of their own beliefs, simply because one's beliefs is what love is constructed from. when two people have opposing beliefs in love, they have nothing else to hold them together and eventually fall apart.

love is fragile that way.



sources/research/reads~ 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7

別の路にいくんなら、私独りでつすめで行けば、何時か会い得るかな？

ALevels Results Release Date

2nd week of March 2009

***update***
Leung Yan just gave me a more specific date, 13th March.

received this news from DC about this supposedly 'reliable' information. The person who announced it is a NIE intern, so believe it if you like.

was it supposed to be this late? hurr whatever, i dread it big time :(((

Marry Me Please

no i'm not asking DC to marry me xD

just look at THIS



HURRR?? what do you think?

If he is really a professional (pro-photographer and architect) why can't he just apply to work in Singapore? Doesn't Singapore welcome foreign expatriates with skills?

no time to blog, SAT TEST TMR OMG OMG OMG :((((((

My Lucky Day !

2 good things happened today =D

1) i got a job !!! woooooots ~

2) dad said it's ok for DC to come over for Chinese New Year dinner !!!

Firstly, i got the job as IT promoter thanks to Daily Job Hunt! The job basically entails promoting IT products to customers etcetera. It pays $7 per hour + commission, 4 days a week, 12 to 8pm...which is damn good money if you ask me. Whew, im glad that i didn't have to resort to getting a $4.50 per hour job like my last ToastBox job. I'm still hoping that this freelance advertising and part-time IT trainer job works out for me too since this job is only a 8 weeks project. Meaning I'll be jobless AGAIN in 8 weeks time :((( Anyhooooo...i'm still happy enough...so...BANZAI ! BANZAI ! BANZAI !!! (can you tell how relieved i am to get a job? i just feel useless and unwanted when jobless...)

Secondly, if you think my dad agreeing to let my bf come over for dinner is no big deal...hurrr then you don't know my dad. Although, my parents didn't object to us being together, my dad was always aloof and cold to him (unlike my mother haha). Like when DC comes over and greets him, he'll just say "Mm" and that's it. No warm welcome, no greeting, nada, zilch. Sometimes when DC comes over, my dad will send my bro in to 'keep an eye' on us lol. Now with all these in mind, don't you think that my dad agreeing to let DC come over for a FAMILY THING is MAJOR BIG DEAL? Yes it is!!! My parents are really conservative people unlike perhaps Jessica's parents who lets her bf sleepover at her house and on her bed (I think =/). This was something that I never thought any parent would agree to, yet I'm proven wrong. I feel like bold-ing 'sleepover' and 'bed' to show how ridiculous it sounds to someone with a more conservative ideology but i won't in case this sounds offensive. Because I know my parents will NEVER agree to let DC sleepover, much less on my bed, hence my dad letting DC join a family thing is really a big step forward for us. I hope that someday, my parents will trust us enough to let DC bring me to visit Nanjing, his hometown...and I hope that day is coming soon :)

How to be a Singaporean

was borrowing books at Yishun library when i caught DC looking at This...

*****on a side note*****
yes! i got to see DC today afterall cus his boss gave him a day off =DD

lol it's quite funny albeit sarcastic...

they should add this:

#26 HOW TO GET A SEAT IN A MRT TRAIN

1) calculate the timings of "empty" trains.

2) position yourself right in front of the doors and wait.

3) refuse to budge when non-empty trains arrive, even if there are other people who actually want to board the train.

4) envelope the doors when an "empty" train arrives.

5) rush in and sit. (it doesn't really matter if someone else is already sitting on it...just kidding haha)

this was my experience when i happened to take the train during rush hours. was kind of confused at first when no one seems to be boarding the train. after a few times...i kinda caught on lol.

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With love

i'm writing this while you are still at NUS, rushing work in the wee hours of the night...
as i probably won't get to see you tomorrow, maybe you can read this when you get a break (:

the very first picture i took of you (:

looking good... xDD

i put this picture up because...THE PERSON BEHIND IS SCRATCHING HIS BUTT !!! LOL.

the first time you got your hair styled by me :D

ahem! here i'm tempted to put a picture of you with my hairclip, but i'm not supposed to...

the cute logo on your socks ^^ some china brand lol...

say hello to cute boy DC with Kiddy Palace cap lol...

"i always get what i want when i do This. -pouts-"

the rings! can you believe that my ring size is LARGER than his ?? X_X..why did i do to deserve these stumpy, fat fingers?

lol stick-out hair :D

stick-out hair looking much better after i styled it xD

another hairstyle by me :DD

hurrr, what are you looking at twerp?
hairstyle by me again :D

hairstyle by me againnnn ^^ all done with water only! :D

CANDID SERIES #1





lol he just loves trains, buses, aeroplanes, cars (in this order) ^^
how he can code 3D graphics AND look like this at the same time is a mystery to me...
in the last 2 pictures, he didnt even notice the camera cus i was holding the train set in front of me as bait :D

stick-out hair #2 xD

reading the encyclopedia i read as a kid...

i always get what i want #2

i always get what i want #3

Strawberry Shortcake Episode 1

Strawberry Shortcake Episode 2 .....LOL !

he's hiding something from me... xD

The Terminator !!!...at Pasar Malam ^^

something you wrote on my knee...

...which i hope is true.

25 days to 14/2, the day you told me you loved me...

2 months and 10 days to 30/3, the day your love was reciprocated...

see you soon my dear.

Personal DNA

Did this test from CareerZone (mentioned in my previous entry) cus Celine went like this:

celine says (11:07 PM):
did you try out the personalDNA thing? haha.
celine says (11:11 PM):
took it long long time ago. haha.
celine says (11:11 PM):
probably a year ago. hmm... i forgot what they wrote leh.
take it la!
then can see. haha.
celine says (11:12 PM):
take it take it!
ignorance is bliss says (11:12 PM):
ok ok :)

hahahaha and i say this is why Celine got 92/100 for Authoritarianism for her test report lol!

anyway my report came out and...

i

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Concerned Idealist !!! .... -_-" kinda sounds lame compared to Celine's Faithful Dreamer...



This doesn't give much insight into my personality, so click
THIS.

omg this so true! even for Celine's, both of us think that it really describes her lol.
if anyone takes it, tell me and i'll tell u if it sounds like you haha xD
must take this test!!!
(muahahaha i have 92/100 for Authoritarianism too ^^)

***updates***
muahaha more people took it :DD
jia hong - Benevolent Inventor
ying hui - Benevolent Leader

if you observe the Traits section, Jia Hong scored ridiculously high on most of the traits while most the bars for my traits are almost empty -_-" sad...

Ignorance is bliss

lol i love this!



Wake up!
Miss Toadstool, it is I, your one and only King,
Bowser Koopa
I'm a turtle as you see
A little slow and alittle green
But I'm the whole I'd say
Supa Dupa

Princess Toadstool, I know you're freightened
But if you knew just why you're here
Your fear would just be heightened
So let's just say
Ignorance is bliss

Well, I'd wait to be a bummer
I've brought you here to bring me plumbers
You know those brothers
Oh, what's their name?
Oh yes, Mario and Luigi
Just sound of them makes me quesy
I'd like to take that monkey wrench
I'd play my own game

Prince Toadstool, you're so misguided
I've never found of bookworms
But then again this one does make good Mario bait
I can't wait
Ignorance is bliss!

With my magic book
I'll shower those crumsy lizards with my power
Until dinosaur land is nothing but fossil fuel
My only problem with these spells
Is that I know not what they tell
So every hex leaves me perplexed
And all I want are those plumbing fools

Princess Toadstool, you're not so clever
All your words are alphabet soup
A picture tells it better
I'll say it again!
Ignorance is Bliss!

Haven't you heard a picture's worth 1000 words

You call yourself a princess but you're a brainiac in a dress
I can't believe you waste time with these books
you remind me of my kid sister
she read so much she got a blister
A big one, I mean big, on her brain, what a snook!!

(I'd like to get my hands on...just one time with a monkey wrench...
I'd fix their plumbing)

Princess Toadstool, I know you're freightened (So misguided)
But if you knew just why you're here
Your fear would just be heightened

Princess Toadstool, you're not so clever (Pictures say it better)
All your words are alphabet soup
A picture tells it better

For the last time-

On second though, I think I've made my point....

Job hunting help!

i have this inexplicable growing frustration with myself...the after effects of job hunting ):
although it's not as if i got BANG BANG! shot down by any job or that i need a job so badly cus i have 4 or 5 mouths at home waiting for me to feed. no, nothing of the sort. yet, strangely i still feel slightly depressed with an unspeakable anxiety.

this unspeakable anxiety has translated into tireless energy of scanning through jobs online. i am helpless in peeling myself away from the endless stream of tabs open on my firefox, each exclaiming they need a person, yet somehow i don't seem to qualify as one.

if you exhibit the following symptoms...
1) your browser looks like this and you can't help it


2) you can't focus doing the usual things you like, i.e. watching anime

3) you check your email every half a minute to see if any job has replied your email

4) you start eating everything fried and unhealthy cos it makes you feel better

5) you experience stress, anger or depression

you/i need to get help!

Unemployment is a health hazard. Why do employers not understand that every time they say no, they might as well be sending a perfectly sane person down the road of madness?

To my fellow unfortunately unemployed friends, we can only persevere to break this vicious cycle! Some websites that might help:

Career Zone- help with writing resumes, career/personality tests
Daily Job Hunt
JobStreet
JobsDB
Jobs Central
Other singapore jobs listing sites

If you desperate you can always go to recruitment agencies like Recruit Express or JAC, but remember they take a certain amount of commission off your salary!

Good luck to everyone looking for a job, meanwhile I shall start studying for my SAT on 24th January!!! ):

Christmas

My super belated Christmas post!

DC and I spent Christmas Eve at Sentosa!

Setting off! :DD

The tram is so cool!

The first animals we saw was this Mama monkey and her baby monkey! xD

Beware, peacock crossing!


At the Touch Pool in Underwater World, me slightly disappointed that there are no baby sharks to touch...


weird fishes that stick themselves in the sand...


I had no idea cuttlefishes looked like this, so cute and innocent...

The couple seat on the sentosa bus :DD


did the peacock follow us to dolphin lagoon??


act cool...lol


so pretty! this thing even has bells on top which play Christmas songs...



artistic picture by me :DD


the bells...nice right?


Merry Christmas everyone and my dear DC :D The best Christmas of my life so far, and the first of our many many Christmases to come...<3